Monday Emotions

A rather uneventful day. I woke up a bit late, due to my late night (again), and did my exercises (32). I finally swept the pool today and backwashed. I watered, and did the usual. I saw some rain clouds, but it never rained...hopefully it will tomorrow or the next day. Ever since I've been doing this gardening stuff, I've come to love the rain quite fondly and gladly welcome it. I've always liked the rain, but now it's coming heralds much more to me than it used to (no work!!!). Anyway, I finished and went swimming for a bit to cool off, then read some more Antony and Cleopatra until supper. We ate together at the table (a rare occurrence lately) and then we - minus Mom - watched the last Marriage video on the responsibility of the husband as being to be loving. So true...it makes me see a lot of weaknesses in some relationships I've seen. Being loving is so much more than emotional feelings, but it includes actions and a purposed will and choice to push onward in spite of contrary feelings to love the other person. And how powerful it must be when one overcomes one's emotions. I struggle with that - I feel like feelings are all that matter and dictate what you do...sure I've known that I shouldn't let them rule me, but I've not been very successful in suppressing them. Emotions are quite strong in me...and I cherish them almost to a fault...because I find it difficult to let go of the past pains and continue in joy. Well, I should go to bed now...